Dec 24

Dec 24 Thank you 2018, NEXT!

Hi guys! Welcome back to my blog - I know its been a while, no excuses! Just life, but I am back & I am better. Let’s just jump right in -

What a freaking year!

2018 -

I have nothing to say but

thank you, NEXT!

This was the year of ultimate growth.

I dont know about y’all but ever heard the saying - first comes laugh then comes cry?

Boy did I do a lot of that this year.

(Both good & bad tears of course.)

To sum this year up as a whole, I’d have to say self reflecting, self love, strength, power & dignity were my main ‘accomplishments’. 2018 started out how any other year starts. I made my list of goals, I checked them twice & I was sure my time line was going to go as planned - wrong! It went up, down, left & right but I am so grateful for it all, scratch that - thankful! Because with out all of those curve balls, I would not be here today - standing taller, prouder & a lot more wiser than I did on January 1st 2018.

(Maybe not the taller part, I’m still a shrimp - but you catch my drift.)

It started with a new job!

I’ve been a part of the aesthetic world for a few years now & I truly think it’s a great fit for me. It’s not something id like to pursue for the future but it definitely has been helpful in learning and connecting with people I never even dreamt of connecting with. Here I am more than a half a year in - kicking ass and looking pretty while doing so, hustle hard & do your thang ladies & gents because no body can ever take that hustle away! Also, save your money! The older I get, the more I catch myself conserving as much as I can. It will help you in the long run, trust me! & if you’re looking for some budgeting tips, check out my last blog post on Living your best life, while also having a mental breakdown ! (Im not the greatest at saving, but my techniques may help immensely.)

Moving on to love -

When you think about it, we fall in and out of love everyday. That puppy I saw last week? Fell in love. That art gallery I recently visited? Fell in love. Had that one not so successful relationship? Fell o u t of love. Which is totally OKAY. Side note: I realized if I want to be the next SJP (for all my sex & the city fans) I gotta dig a little deeper for the good sh*t. Ya girl got dumped this summer & embarrassment was the last thing on my list of feelings! I remember when I told a ‘close’ friend of mine my situation at hand and the first thing out her mouth was ‘don’t tell anyone’. What the heck kind of advice is that?! We spend years of our lives with people we may think are the ones for us but for the most part they aren’t - why be ashamed that it did’nt work out? Be thankful that it did for whatever length of time it did, learn from it, grow from it & move the fuck on. I think it was the highlight of my year because it just goes to show that life is so unpredictable & good is always to follow! Plus, I’m a catch & people tend to realize what they lost after the matter, when in most cases its just too damn late! cues Cardi, *okurrrt*. Realistically speaking, it is always easier said than done, but the feeling of loss and heartache is only temporary. It only takes 21 days to form a new habit & my new habit was making my self stronger everyday since. It’s also okay to cry it out, you spent (for some situations) a huge part of your life with that someone, the feeling of missing their presence is totally normal, my only advice - learn from it. That is all you can do. Know your worth, understand why things didn’t work out, fix YOURSELF & then continue on, because trust me when I say I know we have all felt that “I’m never going to find someone again,” feeling.

You will.

We all do.

It is all trial and error until that soulmate finds you.

Love is love, lets never abuse the power of it.

Also, for the new year - lets all try something new! Let us never make the people we love the most, have to guess how we feel about them & this applies to personal relationships, family & even friends.

Tell them with your words,

Show them with your actions,

Laugh & cry with them,

Love & continue to share love - because with out the power of love, we are nothing.

Then came school -

For those of you who have been following me for a little while now, you’ll remember that school has been one of my greatest obstacles. With all the time I took off, I thought finally graduating with my Associates Degree was nothing. I didn’t want to attend graduation, I didn’t even want to make it known that at the age of 22, instead of receiving a BA like a lot of my friends, I was only now receiving my AA. Until that self realization kicked in & I said screw societies time line on shit, screw what other people may think of me and MY progress because,

I. Did. That.

I did it on my own time,

with my own money,

working a full time job,

attending classes nights & weekends -

and going from a nonchalant C- student (yes, I did not give a fu*k)

to a straight A+ boss bit*h.

Plot twist: I applied for my transfer to a four year college for the spring semester and my choices were between Queens College & Hunter. My rejection email from Hunter came first & although it was my second choice, my heart felt like it was being crushed! It wasn’t what I really wanted, but who likes to hear any type of rejection? Not me.

The next day,

I’m in Duane Reade waiting on a prescription & I’m checking emails in the mean time. I see an email come through from Queens College & all I can see is the subject line (I got Sprint y’all, my data dont be loading in certain areas lmao.)

Subject line: “Krystle, Queens College welcomes you!”

Me being the negative Nancy that I am is reading that but completely oblivious to what it’s saying,

“Ugh whats this email about now, they probably rejected me too!”

I was so sure they rejected me until I caught my commonsense, re read it one more time, connected to the damn pharmacy wifi & realized -

I WAS ACCEPTED!

Moral of the story - dont give up. Show up. Hustle hard & do the damn thing, on your OWN time line.

Everything you do, is for you.

If you’re anything like me, lets make a resolution of our New Year to have more self love & more self confidence because like I said, I did that, and so can you!

I caught myself engulfing in some negative thoughts because of the bad news I got the day prior but that shouldn’t ever stop your thoughts from shedding positive light on to other things.

One thought can change everything. Don’t ever under estimate your thoughts especially those that cause an emotional reaction in you, both positive & negative. Choose the thoughts you want to live by, & always be kind to yourself. We spend all of our days in our heads, you deserve the love and care you so genuinely give to others.

Shed that same light on to yourself.

I had some not so ‘big’ moments too! I lost some friends, gained some new ones. I became intimate with my fears. I listened to them, I understood them - I offered them comfort and I over came them. I failed, I succeeded & I just never gave up. Living in New York City - all of my experiences and encounters, it opens your soul to the endless possibilities this one city alone can offer - I went on adventures, and I embraced this universe with open arms. The world is my oyster & I plan on conquering it in the new year. I hope you all join me because this is not only my journey -

its

o u r s.

Some New Year Resolutions?

Be kind to myself even when the going gets tough.
Be confident in my own skin and love me for the person I am destined to be.
Remind myself that my craft is unique to me and it takes an abundance of time to truly master it - never give up.
STOP DRINKING SODA. (ha, cliche I know - but its my guilty pleasure!)
Leave the could haves, should haves & what ifs behind.
Be who the fu*k I am & embrace every ounce of it.

What are some of your resolutions?

To all of my followers who have read, left feedback & have been supporting me since way back, even the ones who stop by just to read my work - thank you! Truly, I wouldn't be who I am as a person with out the support and recognition from you all. Our journey has just begun and I plan on taking you all for the unexpected in 2019 - stay tuned, stay safe, continue to create, inspire & most of all, be k i n d.

Wishing you all a happy, healthy & prosperous new year ahead! May it bring you all the positive energy this universe holds & may you continue to shine brighter with each new day.